AN: Hey everyone! The song in this fic is from Fisher's new CD "True North" and it's called "I Will Love You" c. 2000 Interscope Universal Records, c. 2000 Raw/Fisher.

Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing or any of its characters and I do not own the beautiful song "I Will Love You".

Just some background, this assumes Endless Waltz never happened. It's written from Relena's POV. Alrighty, with that said, on with the songfic. It's just some good 'ole fluffiness to be enjoyed so…Enjoy!!!

By: Silent Moon Sphinx

I'm sitting in my room, waiting. Waiting for you. I asked you to come here tonight. I gave Lady Une the message that it was important. Will you come, I wonder? You must have known I would find out. I always have my way of finding out your new missions. Did you think you could really hide this one from me?

I hear it's going to be dangerous. A possible suicide mission and you are the only one with the slim possibility of survival. You are the best man for the job, for you will put any mission before your own life. Why do you always have to be so perfect? Your self-sacrifice and devotion will only end up getting you killed, yet you always accept every order, knowing your next mission may be your last. With no fear, you plunge into every assignment. Fearful, I pray for your safe return. What if you don't come back to me this time? What if you leave me here…all alone?

I've stopped trying to deny it anymore. I thought I could be strong without you. But, I can't. Not yet. I love you, and I know you may not want to hear those words, but I do. Nothing will ever keep me from feeling the way I do. Forever, I will love you…for all time.

I look out the window. You still haven't come. I light a candle and melt into the darkness of my room. Over the tops of the silhouetted trees, I can see the moon. It looks dark tonight. Is it a warning? I look away. No, I must stop myself from having these thoughts. You told me to believe in you and now I am already doubting your return. But I just can't push back this feeling of worry. With every ounce of my energy I pray for you. I am now down on my knees praying only for you.

That is how you find me, collapsed on my knees in furious prayer. I don't even realize you are there until you are so close behind me that you could almost touch me. I spin around when I feel your presence and you take a slow step away from me.

So you came.

The candle that was burning had gone out long ago and now all I can see is the pale moonlight flashing off of your deep blue eyes. I manage to collect myself and stand up to face you. I had wanted to say so many things to you, but all I can do now is stare, breathless. I had wanted to beg you to stay, but I know from your eyes that this could never be possible. You gaze softly, but intensely at me. I think I'm shaking now.

You put out two firm arms to steady me. I turn my eyes downward. How will I ever be able to let you go? Don't you realize how much you mean to me? How much I need you? I'm too weak to be able to go on without you. Even if I never meant anything to you, you mean the world to me, you always will. Just knowing you were somewhere out there gave me the hope to live each day, in the chance that I would see you, that I could learn from you.

God, you are so humble. The fate of thousands rests on your shoulders and you bear it with no strain at all. How I wish I could be like you! You are the silent leader of the universe. You save all of humanity again and again, yet no one understands how you have never let them down. And now you are here, helping me to stand, while these may be the last precious moments of your life. Never selfish, never failing, no wonder you always seem so hollow. You have given every part of yourself away to any one who asks of you. A true angel.

You touch my cheek and bring my eyes back to meet yours. That pair of penetrating blue…they are asking me why I wanted to see you. Finally, I know. I want to give you my heart, to fill up your empty shell, so that you might protect it and come back to me.

I am barely able to whisper my reason for seeing you. I say it so softly, that I don't even know if you have heard me. You stay with your hand cupping my face for a long, long time. Then you bring it to the back of my neck and gently place my head to rest on your steady shoulder. I now know you understand me.

The tears come swiftly. I didn't even realize I was trying to fight them. You hear my muffled sobbing and you hold me closer. This is all I ever wanted. You were all I ever wanted.

Finally, we break apart. A soft glow is rising over the mountains outside of my window and the last stars are disappearing from the lonely sky. It is time for you to go. You place a light kiss on my forehead. I know my face is tear-stained and cringing with sorrow. But you…your beautiful face gives nothing away. Your eyes, however, seem placid, and sparkle as if they hold some ominous wisdom that I will never know. You reach out a hand, and touch my heart, holding it there until you're sure you have the beat burned deep into your memory. You then tug at the shirt on your own chest and look at me with a newfound purpose. You bow your head and when you look up again, I see that you have put the shield of a warrior over your creamy cheeks and your eyes now seem vacant and determined. You whirl away and disappear out of the room, your black overcoat swishing behind you like the angel of death going to seek out his new victims.

I stand there where you had held me in your arms. I stand there a long while. The purple sky is filling with a rosy warmth. I understand now. You took my heart with you. I only hope it can save you. Please be careful with my heart and return it to me safely. And you…come back to me alive.

Forever.

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Well, that's my first songfic. Any comments or feedback would be appreciated. Thanks for reading!