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Author's Notes: Ok I wrote this while I was totally bored in English. My teacher is SOOOO boring. Once I nearly fell asleep. AANYWAY, this is a (really) short monologue from Relena's POV about Heero. Enjoy, and please review!

Why Me?

By Shi no Tenshi

Why? Why me? Of all the young women in the world, why do I have to be the one to fall in love with him? He’s cold, uncaring…he’s a homicidal maniac! There has to be at least three times when he’s pointed that gun of his at me and threatened to kill me. So why in the name of humanity do I constantly follow him around?

It’s not his piercing, cobalt eyes that freeze me in my tracks like a deer caught in a car’s blazing headlights. It’s not his musical voice that rings melodious despite his unnerving, usual monotone. It’s not even that rare, almost nonexistent smile. That dazzling, beautiful smile that makes me go weak at the knees. I…I don’t know what it is about me that pulls me towards him like flies to honey. All I know is that to me, he is the most wonderful person in the entire universe, past or present.

The thing is…I’m just a mission to him. Just another bratty girl to protect with his life. He must have a lot of experience with guarding prissy girls like me, seeing he is so good at his mission. Like when…oh…that was me. Or that other time…oh yeah…that was me too. Well, I’m sure he’s had a lot of experience; he’s kept me safe for the past three years.

I guess you could call him my best friend, but that’s not exactly what I’m after. I want something more…I guess you could say I want to spend the rest of my life with him, something I’m sure my brother would not approve. They say you should never date your best friend, for one of three things can happen:

One, he realizes he feels the same way and both of you live happily ever after.

Two, he doesn’t feel the same way and you two drift farther and farther apart.

Three, he doesn’t feel the same way and becomes very embarrassed. He avoids you and never talks to you again.

I’m afraid of the latter two, so I’ve never openly told him how I feel. Oh sure, I’ve hinted at it at more than one occasion, and he’s escorted me to more than one party, but I doubt he sees me as anything more than an object to shelter from the cold and the rain. For now, all I can do is dream. Dream of the day when he will be mine. Mine to cherish and love.

I love you Heero.

So…did it totally and completely suck? I was too lazy to have this beta'd even though my beta reader sits across from me in English. ^_^; Please review and tell me how I did!